Tonight

Finally, a reality show that I can admit that I'm watching, airs tonight! Go Jamie Go! Jamie Oliver's Food Revolution on ABC, 9 p.m. EST.

Legoland

I have to be honest. I am not a fan of theme parks, and Disney is my idea of hell on earth. I have taken my two- twice and I am officially done. Check. Check. Now to totally contradict myself, I am kind of excited about yesterday's announcement of Legoland coming to Cypress Gardens. I have always wanted to go to San Diego and visit Legoland and their zoo, plus it is California. I have always been fascinated by the life size renditions of Darth Vador , Chewbacca, and Harry Potter made entirely of Legos. Unfortunately, my boys have never been with me, and pictures just don't do them justice. I have never been to Tampa either, so another bonus. Legoland is slated for 2011 and I am so there, at least once, maybe twice. Check. Check.

A little Happy for me

I came across this site on one of my random blog searches and immediately ordered one for my boy's bathroom. The french freak in me paused on the Paris map. Yet, as a serious lover of NYC, I knew what to do. I want my boys to know New York City like the back of their hand. I grew up with poems framed in our bathroom, and guess what, I still have them memorized. So now I need to come up with some great poems, to go along with this map. I love poetry, so this task is a little daunting. I would seriously love to know your favorite childhood poems. The ones that make you dream. Here is one, of the poems I memorized, from my time sitting on the LOO.

The Swing

How do you like to go up in a swing,

Up in the air so blue?

Oh, I do think it the pleasantest thing

Ever a child can do!

Up in the air and over the wall,

Till I can see so wide,

Rivers and trees and cattle and all

Over the countryside-

Til I look down on the garden green

Down on the roof so brown-

Up in the air I go flying again,

Up in the air and down!

by Robert Louis Stevenson

Yellow

I love the color YELLOW. It just makes me smile and then some. Today, I could use some smiles and then some. These just arrived a few minutes ago, from my sweet friend Amy. I love tulips and the pine- yummy. I had already planned on posting these other pictures that I came across this morning, because they were light, happy, and YELLOW. Thanks everybody for the well wishes. They have helped a lot. Here is to brighter days and to Spring, Nan

Rebirth

As you probably don't know, I had a miscarriage this week. I went Tuesday for a prenatal checkup and the midwife was unable to find a heartbeat and ordered an ultrasound ASAP. Luckily, I wasn't alarmed as I should have been, as I am a little too laid back at times, and don't freak out until I have good reason too. I asked the ultrasound technician if she saw a heartbeat. Her response, "I'm sorry, you will have to talk to your doctor." At that moment, I have never felt so literally alone, and raw. I welled up with tears. Unfortunately, my sweet husband, was on his way home from a business trip. Then I had to wait and wait. Finally I was called back to the midwife, who had seen me earlier that morning. She sat down immediately and the first word out of her mouth was, "Unfortunately..." That is when I really cried. I appreciated her directness, her obvious concern, and the wade of tissues she supplied. She asked if she could call my husband, and I said, "No, he is out of town." She wanted to call someone, but I assured her that I didn't want anyone. Again, I am somewhat of a loner, and definitely needed to have my space. She then said that my Doctor wanted to see me in his office. This is when you realize how important a good doctor is and how nice small towns are. Anyway, Dr. Stubley made a sad situation feel a little better. He ordered a D&C for the next day and assured me that he would be there every step of the way. His nurse is also a rock star and filled out my paperwork and asked if I had a preference for anesthesiology . Of course, I did, and she said she would call him personally and see what she could do. Yesterday, as I waited in the waiting room, Dr. Bragg, the anesthesiologist, came out and shook my husband's hand and hugged my neck, saying how sorry he was and that he was going to take good care of me. He and Dr. Stubley did and then some. I can't express enough, how at peace, I was, knowing I was in such good hands- their hands and ultimately God's. Father Buechner, who I like to call FB, because he is so human and sweet, came back and visited with us too. He was just right and exactly the spiritual food I needed.

Last night I didn't sleep much. I feel like I have been asleep for months, with pregnancy and all the yuckiness that seems to come my way. I couldn't turn my head off and physically I felt so much better. Although, I am sad, I have to say I am really at peace with this. I kept thinking how FB, in his more formal, Episcopalian way, said that I was GREAT WITH CHILD, when he heard my news of expecting. At the time, I kind of chuckled at the formality, but I did understand what he was saying- Kind of. I am no longer Great with Child, but I am GREAT with renewed purpose. I now want to be a Greater Mom to my precious boys, a Greater Wife, a Greater Christian, and ultimately a Greater Person. I don't think I would have gotten that, if I had not been Great with Child, and for that I am truly blessed and thankful.

Liberty of London

I appreciate good fashion, but I live in South Georgia, so it is not a high priority, by any means. Also, I can't afford my taste, certainly don't have the time, and hate, loathe, despise, dreaded, trying on clothes. Basically, I am screwed. However, I did bee line it to Florida this afternoon because Liberty of London for Target debuted. Hip Hip Hooray! It did not disappoint. I am going to use my new purchases for maternity clothes, because I don't have a lick of clothing, from my last pregnancy seven years ago. That is probably a good thing. Anyway, the price is right, with really fun summer prints, so GO, GO, GO! The girl's dresses are also precious. Good thing I have boys, because I did enough damage on my own.